I don't want to think about the negative. All the positive's have been coming out lately. With one small negative it seems to be all I think about.
You're easily distracted away from me.It's something I can't stand and never could. You leap away just when I think I have a firm grasp on you.
You silly little butterfly.
I crave attention. You know this. And yet, you've done everything to give me otherwise. I understand you're busy and stressed out so I pour out my heart to you and I get a simple "Aww, I know." for the most part. And you know what, my love?
It pisses me off. You're so cold lately. Unintentionally I feel.
I know you're struggling. Pushing me to the back of the line doesn't make anything easier on you, does it? It
kills me. You claim you love me and me alone and I believe you. Or maybe I believed you. Lately I'm not so sure.
You are my first boyfriend.
First kiss.
First lover.
First
love.
You say that someday I'll be your first wife. Your only wife. We're so young and I never cared before.
We used to have our whole life planned to the T.
Our dream home.
The basement is yours and yours alone but I can do whatever I want with the rest of the house.
"I'll give you anything and everything you've ever wanted."
Our love is such a
Notebook cliche and we've always loved it.
And now- nothing can be planned.
Life is never set in stone.
Never.This I've learned this past year. So many hardships have been tossed into our lap. You almost lost me to the accident. I remember you said once you received the phone call that I was hit you couldn't even go to work. You were a shaking, nervous wreck. And then I left with a bump on the head, broken leg, shooken up, bruised body of an 18 year old girl. Once I was re-emitted four days later, the doctors told me I was hours away from death. I cried out to you and there you were. You slept with me in that hospital for a few nights that week. I felt like I was the happiest girl in the world despite my two near rushes with death in one week.
I regained myself and limped on home for two months. Again, you remained by my side. You've always answered my call when I needed you. Always.
So now I call out once more. To test how strong our love once was and could remain. I'm calling out to you to come home.
I'm waiting for a response..
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